Overwhelmed

Hey people. Tons going on right now. My energy is generally up, but kind of all over the place. I've begun querying again, and writing- but haven't managed to carve out much time. In the evenings I've made an hour or two to look over the two stories I'm revamping, but by the time I get done working and riding I'm pretty tired.

I'm really feeling the pressure of the show right now. It's different getting ready for a gallery show. Other people's incomes depend on how well you do. Your career depends on how well you do. If the show bombs there's a chance you won't get asked back, or at the very least, won't be given a primo spot on the calendar.

I've got a bunch of unfinished artwork staring at me out in the shop. My head is stuffed with ideas and I know from the past these last- gulp- 17 days I will be in overdrive and will get an amazing amount done, but yipes.

It's a weird feeling. I have family and friend obligations that stress me out even though I'm looking forward to them and know they're important. I know I can't give up my hour or two of activity a day (usually riding the trail lately) or I'll lose it. Meanwhile there is this pressure building in me of all the work waiting to be brought into physical form from inside my head.

The only way to alleviate it is to get my butt out there and get welding. So that's what I'm going to do. Have a good day people. Send me some good vibes.